GRUMPS(:

2006-10-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

i've moved.

if you dont know my link, too bad for you(:

BUT

you'll definitely know sooner or later la.

2006-10-02T16:57:00.000+08:00

Why is it that all i'm ever thinking of is you?

let's see what happened today. today was laugh at ANNABELLE day. guess what, she was abnormally BLUR today. haaa. let's see.

during lit, as we're doing a play, there's roleplaying. so there was one line that said:

EVERYONE: Skol, doctor!

so mrs tan read it out and annabelle being blur,

annabelle: SKOL.....(looks around, no one else is saying) ehh...
me: you're not supposed to read la!

goodness, mrs tan was just reading off the book, not asking EVERYONE to read! tskk. omg. ha.

THEN,

mrs tan sidetracked and looked out of the window saying the air is very bad. then she asked those with asthma if their asthma acts up nowadays. then she asked michelle if her's does then michelle said no. then mrs tan said then her's is not asthma then. then mrs tan asked again," is yours asthma?" meanwhile,

annabelle: huh? what act smart?
me: asthma la!
MRS TAN: what did you hear as annabelle?
me: she heard as ACT SMART. hahaha
MRS TAN: is yours act smart? how does that sound right?
annabelle: i heard asthma LAH!
me: yea, i'm sure(:

then we took down notes for sense of belonging. and annabelle wrote SAMPHIRE as SANDFIRE.

choiling: annabelle! it's samphire NOT sandfire la!
annabelle: oh quick! change change change! dont show anyone! dont let anyone see! hurry!!

hilarious!

then mrs tan gave us 2 free periods for self-revision. then choi, belle, carol and started role playing. hahaha. we read read read and came to one page which had this guy called Aslaksen and no one knew how to pronounce it but TRIED hard anyway. but then choi gave up and read the line as..

"shhh. not so loud, WHATEVER'S inside." it was supposed to be: "shhh. not so loud, Aslaksen's inside"

hahahahahaa. funny laa. okay..maybe i just have a weird sense of humour. oh whatever!

so then ate at MOS with lynn...la dee dah. then homed. got pissed cause my mum wouldnt let me tudy at eunice's house. oh wth la! saying i use that as an excuse to get out of the house!? i really dont understand SS la. cockanathan. after tht didnt really have the mood to study alr. wah lao. spoil my whole mood. chicken nuggets. RAHH- oh wells. i'm just emo. yes, i'm emo everyday. i guess it's true. guess what? why dont you change that for me?

as i was walking along the pathway blasting music into my ears,
i looked up and saw a figure,
i hoped and i wished that it was you,
the figure was blur from afar,
then i heard a voice,
as the figure neared,
i knew my head was playing games with me.

// unrequited love never felt so good

2006-10-01T18:58:00.000+08:00

If you were mine,

okay. today was alright. nth much but..sleeping? ahh damn. amerie, you need to start studying you know! AHHHHHH ):

i'm getting really emo-fied. and it stinks. but you see, there's nth i really can do about it. i'm just too concerned abt matters of the heart. but you see, i shoudlnt really bother right? not like bothering would make a diff anyway.

im wondering what i'll be doing after the exams.

damn. gtg.

2006-09-30T23:26:00.000+08:00

hahaha. just came to gen's house to meet my parents a while ago. OMGoodness. just now was uber fun. (: we went for the exam mass then off the punggol park! haha. we waited at the bus stop for dion, but we girls didnt wanna wait, so we boarded the bus first with martin.

in the bus...

MARTIN: omg, the guys abandoned me
ME, VAL, GWEN, DENYSE: you just realised? hahahahahaha.

then a while later we see all the guys running after the damn bus! omg. then we pledaed the uncle to stop the bus. he alr wanted t move off at first. then val kept pressing the stop button. hahah. oh gosh. i tell you super hilarious and brandon almost got left behind. SUPER SLOW la that guy. hahaha. then when they boarded the bus, the uncle muttered unkind words under his breath. GOSH. sorry la uncle.. haha. then the story was tht, when dion came, the bus JUST left so they decided to run after the bus, and they made it! first to come in was rico,then berwin, caleb then..brandon. HAHA.

then reached punggol park, went over the 401 there to buy laterns, candles, lighter and drinks. (: super funny. let's skip to the intersting parts :D

the guys scraped the sparkler thing into a cup and set it on fire then it started sparking up. SO COOL i tell you (: hahahaha. then we threw the lighter into the fire after that then there was an explosion! haha.so fun. (: haha.

i need to rush off now. (:

// i love you!!

2006-09-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

loving a person is not perfect, it's only human

there's this song tht's stuck in my head. so irritating. i keep asking my bro and sis what's the title they say it's called uh oh....just cause it's starts with UH OH!? and the song keeps playing in the show and stops at the word uh oh. OMG! i wanna know tht song! HELP?!

ohhhhhhh! i found the song alr! it's called i'll never leave you! haha. so funny. i'm so happy! hahaha. :DD

today was english paper. summary was lame. what kind of a country is named zulu, ludan and beirut!? sounds so fuuny. and the invigilator was EVEN funnier! haha.his name is TEO. haha. collection of papers was damn retarded. whole class burst out laughing. HAHA.

JY holds paper up high in the air,
TEO: dont hold so high!

BRIDGET holds it super high, then super low not allowing him to take,
TEO: give it to me! (in low voice)
BRIDGET imitating his voice: orh.okay.

and behind me was QUEEN making noise about him saying he wears his pants so high all. then she kept complaining abt him. saying he's irriating all! ahaha. he really is! then when ppl ask him if we supposed to detach the cover page he say wait arh i go check..and he continues collecting the papers!? haha. wtheck. hilarious. and he only allowed ppl to go toilet for three minutes. haha. QUEEN kept laughing at him. haha. so loud somemore.

today school ended at 210pm. cause of some talk thingg. CURSES to those ppl who tarnished IJ school's name. come on okay. tskk. how could you all. i shake my head. seriously, it's cause of OBVIOUS reasons why ppl say theses kinda things abt IJ schools. maybe the IJ board should limit the kinda ppl that enter our school! sheezus!

enough of that. hurr. i realised tht i keep blogging long post nowadays. and it's all crap. wna know why? cause i FEEL like crap. everything to me IS crap. well, not really. i just HAD TO say that. as you read this paragraph, you'd realise that this is ACTUALLY really a load of crap. nothing but pure genuine crap. uh huh, you'd tend to go on reading this and start smiling to yourself like an idiot as if someone just told you a super hilarious joke WHICH most likely would be associated as crap. (: this para has not ended yet as i've not finishd crapping. ppl who read crappy things and write crappy things ARE NOT crappy. heheheheheheh. is that true? i dont know cause all of this is JUST crap. thank you for your crappy attention ((: haha.

oh mann. what's wrong with me? i can be happy all of a sudden and sad the other. why am i like that ah? i really wna know. can anyone tell me the answer? does anyone even know? omgoodness.

i've discovered many bruises on me. and i have no idea where they've come from. and i keep biting myself whenever i'm eating. it's not cause i'm heaty or whatever. i dont know why. do you? well, acutally i do. it's maybe cause i was too busy concentrating on YOU(not you,the one reading but my special someone whom doesnt know).

i got to mug hard. :DD reminds me of recess. haha.

why is it everything i do, you dont wanna believe it's true,
but everything she does, it means the world to you?
i caught you watching her,
you think i dont know.

tmr is exam prayer. cant wait. i miss val mentee loads! cant wait to mug with her tmr(: yayy! heh. i love her many.

"behind some doors, ppl are waiting to sparkle" this quote came from the confessions of the teenage drama queen.

would you pls stop cutting yourself. what's the point of it? i alr told you to stop it yet you still continued. why must you do that? i told you very nicely alright. stop it, will you? just stop it. it's ridiculous. your arm is full of scars, nice? i think not. please, think abt the ppl who care. dont hurt them just cause you're hurting. deal with the hurt inside rather than hurt yourself physically. i just care, cant you understand that...forget it. ~~my words dont mean a thing to your ears anyway.~~

// i stood there screaming for you but there wasn't a sound coming out

2006-09-28T21:11:00.000+08:00

YOU CHANGED MY WORLD
THE MOMENT I SAW YOU

today was great(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QUEEN and CRISTALBELLE! :DD

morning, woke up at 0625hrs. so tired. thanks to ANNABELLE LEONG la! make us wait up to wish her and she slept in the end. TSK! had to wake up early to get presents from theresa. omg i tell you, i thought her house was near. was perspiring like hell when i reached school. haha. anyway, i was so nice to go meet her and the presents for annabelle okay! haha. annabelle, you better be happy! haha. all this was planned without annabelle knowing. heh. we were so good at surprising her today....

so firstly, i hid the stuff with BEST first. then caroline passed her the green tea bottle after assembly. should've seen the shocked look on her face!! haha :D then headed to maths class put one present in each of our bags. then i handed the EMPTY paper bag to annabelle.

ME: ehh.this is for you. happy birthday. (:
ANNABELLE huh look: what the hell. thanks ah.
ME impromptu: no laa...without you, our lives would be empty like this paper bag"
ANNABELLE: AWWWWWWWWWWW. ((((:

then, maths, choi passed her the BIN BIN! ahaha.

ANNABELLE: where you guys get all this from? who meet one!?
WE: aiyoh...how we know!

then, second period of chinese, lydia passed the piglet. AGAIN, annabelle was giving the OMG face. ahaha.

ANNABELLE: ehh..you tell me how you get laaa. i wont say you told me.
ME: I REALLY DONT KNOW LA!!!!
ANNABELLE: dont lie! i know you're the MASTER MIND.
ME: your head la!! *changes topic* ehh..the piglet so cute...I SEE. hurr.

and between this time, she was complaining how come we didnt have a card for her..i was like cause it's your bday and you're the one tht's always making the cards for us...? hahahah. what an actor i am! (((:

then, RECESS! that was the best.

ate, waited for choi and sauyan to return. caroline asked annabelle to go to the toilet. then pretend sit in cubicle for super long. then, the rest of us in the canteen were rushing to prepare the cake and all. haha. then i went to give the signal, "EHH. why you guys so long!!!!! hurry come back laa.. we gg class alr." annabelle SCOLDED me LA! tsk. say i unreasonable due to some reasons(which were not even true). RAHH- unappreciative! haha. then as they were walking back, we started singing.....then annabelle was shocked yet AGAIN.

ANNABELLE: awwww...i feel so loved!

hold on, we were still full of surprises for her, with the remaining 4 presents and our flowers. so, someone covered her eyes and we took out our flowers. 5 roses, 1 sunflower and the fake rose. so each of us passed her the roses and sauyan passed her the sunflower and caroline passed her the fake rose saying " we'll love you till the last petal falls" ((: heh. super fun laa.

then headed to SS class. MISS YEO wasnt around. so we took photos. (: ahha. emo emo all. ahahah. then 12pm alethea passed her the soap. heh. nice smell la. heh. REALLY VERY NICE. then more and more photos.

then after maths at 1pm i passed her the hershey's kisses. annabelle still wondering... haha.
then 2pm sauyan passed her the last present.. POWDER. haha. sweet smelling BABY powder. heh. then.........this was the time when annabelle found out how we got the presents, when i passed her theresa's letter. haha.

ME: queen! come here. i got something for you. *passes letter
ANNABELLE: *opens letter OH!!!!! now i know! haha.
ME: yeahhhh. NOW YOU KNOW. haha.

goodness. super funny la. most successful birthday this year. haha. cause belle is SO BLUR laa. ahah. love you queen! happy bday again. promise you i wont be emo TODAY...guess what? it's ending soon. heh :D

i slammed the table against the wall today and kept punching the wall thanks to C as i was alr super emo!! ~~sickenning piece of pi sai.~~

// why is it when you love someone, the someone dont love you back?

2006-09-28T20:33:00.000+08:00

2006-09-27T21:08:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO BE YOURS,
NOT BEHIND CLOSE DOORS,
BABY; COME TO ME

today was funny. after school went home got the biscuits then went to compass. popular-ed. ahah. alethea left her biscuit tin at the bookshelf! damn funny la! the guy was like staring when she went back to take it. haha. then i went down to macs to find ryl, sng and all. then sat with them. ate. then talked a while. then wing and ryl were playing this racing game. oh my god! EXPLICIT.

ryl: wing, where is your car(sounds like the dialect for leg)?
wing: at your rear!!! *giggles
ryl: oh okay. NO, you're in my front now!
wing: yeahhh! i'm in the front of you.
ryl: *giggles
then they giggle and giggle. OMG la!

me and sng were SHOCKED (:
jamie was happily studying.
then liz came and we headed to SKCC. studied a while. then homed.

ONE MORE DAY TO THE BELLE'S BIRTHDAY! :D

// i love you, dont you know?

i dont understand you la. seriously, i dont even know why you bother even waiting for her when she's not worth of your love. it's redundant. she's such an asshole. such a disgrace to us, butches. we aren't as mean as her la. wait, why do i even care abt this huh. fuck it alright. i just wna be nice and tell you to ignore her. you're just making her feel WANTED. she's like telling everyone that you cant live without her. dont amke yourself sound so despo. it's dumb. fuck forget it. i shouldnt bother anyway. but....i still care. oh whatever.
stop,look,turn away.

2006-09-26T16:30:00.000+08:00

i'm depressed ): i dont know why. it's like, i feel ignored. why does this thing called love, hurt so bad? it's so...well, HURTING? some ppl just dont care. ~~ahhh fuck.~~ why do i blame you ?you dont even know how i feel for you...or...do you? I DONT REALLY KNOW.~~ijusthopethatyoufeelthesamewaytoo~~ i just feel super down
lately and NO ONE is there. no one for me to really have a heart to heart talk to. what can i do anyway? you're my only hope. RAHH-

it's so weird how you can actually love two ppl at the same time.
is tht even possible?
well, i dont know. it's just so...CONTRADICTING?
esp if the two ppl are A and V.
yeahh.so i'm kinda thinking twice abt your feelings.
ahh..why do i even give a damn.
someone, shoot me!

//have you ever found the one you've given your heart to, only to find that one wont give her heart to you

QUEEN wrote an inspiration page for me today. (: loved it. i liked this one quote..i think goes smth like "it's amazing how two strangers can become best friends but it's weird how two best friends can become two complete strangers". inspirational RIGHT? HAWHAW :D chinese class can kill. it's SO boooring. ha. today had mass in school. it was so fun. yes, MASS WAS FUN. heh. father simon is damn funny luh. goodness. and dearest mummy, dont care abt him. if he wants to treat this way, let him be, he dont deserve you. SMILE. the swimsuits are here for you 24/7! i've decided to do some vigilant studying. as inspired by father simon's homily. heh. i can do it la! yayy! ha. i like the song spirit wings. shiok shiok. heh. i think i'm off to study alr. goodbye.

; the silence kills me when you dont reply me at all

2006-09-25T17:54:00.000+08:00

today was kissing buffet day. haha. had 5 free periods. as usual, we played truth or truth. then got kinda bored and started playing dare or dare at approx. 12.45. and OH MY GOD. it started with me. and guess what!? I HAD TO KISS LYDIA ON THE CHEEK. damn traumatising la! then i dont know how, but everyone started kissing everyone and the game changed to kissing buffet. it was so funny. and i'm so honoured, BELLE lost her first girl kiss to me! HAHAHAH! (((: so funny la. i love the swimsuits. yay.

here are the videos:

there's more but...i got no time luhh.ahaha. do ltr again ((:

//imma run after you

2006-09-24T15:26:00.000+08:00

AT NIGHT I PRAY,
THAT SOON YOUR FACE WILL FADE AWAY

i'm kinda happy now. hahahahahaha. i can jump off the building now. ehh, that wouldnt be THAT good. RIGHT? ahaha. i rather live! yayyy! haha.

i watched a walk to remember ytd. it was so SAD. but a damn nice show. it's like the guy is like damn lovely. it's hard to find someone that loves you so much nowdays. oh wells. ha!

-SOMEDAY WE'LL KNOW

Ninety miles outside Chicago,
Can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
For the ninety-seventh time tonight

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watch the stars crash in the sea
If I could ask God just one question
Why aren't you here with me tonight?

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you

-ONLY HOPE

There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars.
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs
I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down,
and I lift my hands and pray
to be only yours I pray
to be only yours I pray
to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

lovely right the songs? uh huh. haha. i know queen will like the songs LA! haha. oh yeah, queen's bday is coming :DD haha. WHY AM I EXCITED FOR HER? i shouldnt even be announcing this to everyone luh. TSK. queen, you better be honoured. ((: haha. aight. i'm off for SINGAPORE IDOL (:

//once again, you make me fall and i'm hurt

2006-09-23T18:46:00.000+08:00

went to stay over at sacha's house last night, SO FUN. ((; ahahah. sauna, steam bath, jacuzzi and a pool. HURR :DD

let's see this week sucked. yes, it did. ALOT. i cant stand it luh. i'm going to die die die die! oh gosh. i'm in need of 6B2T outings. oei! swimsuits! helllllllppp? rahh-

today marks the date of the supposed one year. yes, 230905 perished on the 250806. it is never to return. well, i do miss the times spent. memories that's what they'll be. stay happy yes? (: love.

okay.enough of amerie being emo. i'm gonna strive to be happy again. i NEED TO find that happiness.

//baby, come to me

2006-09-21T18:34:00.000+08:00

i'm rather bored now. was scribbling all over my notebook just now. i felt better after that. RAHH- but now, once again, i'm feeling like crap. you see, i dont know why i'm like this. maybe i'm just in the lack of love. i need to love someone and i need someone to love me. i've done the first...the second..that's not gonna happen for a very long time i guess. i feel stupid luh okay? WHAT CAN I DO ANYWAY? nothing right? so i'll just shut up here luh UH? oh man oh man oh man!

oh gosh. i'm being annoyed by some annoying freak who is annoyingly annoying and is annoying the guts outta me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay. i'm kinda excited for school tmr. its gonna be fun (:
i love school luh okay? hurr.

2006-09-21T15:55:00.000+08:00

i didnt go school today. having a terrible puking and diarrhoea problem. oh gosh. i can just DIE. and i'm rather emo too. i didnt feel like getting out of bed though i wanted to attend school so badly. ha. i'm getting oh-so-contradicting. ): i'm dying laaaaa. dying dying dying.

eunice is playing me a song on the phone now. hurr. it's rather sweet. (:

sigh. right now, i feel like going into a deep deep sleep. never to wake up! ))): ahhhhh. i'm really emo okay. seriously. i feel dead! oh gosh. i miss you so god damn much aight. i really really do. you dont know, do you? you dont. hell no, you don't! ahhhhh. i'm going crazy. there's smth wrong with me.... ehhhh. ehhhh. ):

i miss 6B and 1T. haiyah...... oh wells. i should've gone school today. haiyah. i'll end this random post here. dont wanna spoil anybody's mood.

everyone's emo. and eunice feels idiotic. (:

goodbye world.

2006-09-20T18:23:00.000+08:00

(: i love these ppl!

-Annabelle
-Sauyan
-Caroline
-Choi Ling
-Lynn
-Lydia
-Alethea

they are the 6 bikinis and the 1 trunk. i love them alot lahh! really! (:
they make me happy. without them, i'd be emo my whole life. REALLY. haha. all of us are hooked onto crapping. let's do more of our handshakes! (: hahaha.

6B2T forever :DDD

2006-09-19T18:29:00.000+08:00

~~today was GREAT!~~

i absolutely LOVED LOVED LOVED IT. well..that was kinda AFTER school ended. uh huh. i was like EMO like shit when school was on. thanks to @#@$#%^^*&($@! YEAH. i like wont mention why luh. no one needs to know. ANNABELLE LEONG rocks. i love her to many many bits and pieces. yes yes, I LOVE MY QUEEN! hurr. chinese lesson was boring as usual. everyone was sleeping. yeaaah. and SHE was annoying the guts out of me, i swear!

okay. recess. no money. so dont talk about it. i like forgot to bring AGAIN. HA. but i love bestie(: she lent me 2 buckeroos. loves it! :D

SS was crap. miss yeo was damn pissed and disappointed in us luhh. i could tell from the look on her face. gosh. maybe we should change our attitude abit huh THREE JUSTICE? yeahh. like tht will ever happen you know! tskkkk. HAHA. then maths. nothing much. i was rather cranky then. kept SNEEZING. i SWEAR i really WAS sneezing alright! i was not crying! honestly! goodness. BUt i admit i waskinda sad luhh. and gosh, my beloved 6 bikinis cheered me up so much! i couldnt stop laughing for a while then. assembly was another bummer. funny but i wasnt really in the correct mood. and i ACCIDENTALLY cut my hand with the stupid sharp stapler bullet. I WAS BORED. ): and thank you ----------------- for that letter laaa. it didnt help you know! RAHH-

so many words running thru my mind now, things like "wth laaaa", "seriously, i dont know what to do", " CANT SCHOOL JUST END TODAY!? NOW!? FOREVER.....", and lastly, "I'M SAD."

anyway, school was over. headed to compass with queen, cristalbelle and grandkid. haha. reeetards i swear. the walk there was fun la. i cheered up a bit then. THEN, i met my ever so beloved mentee, VALERIE SING! (: eating and talking rubbish. ahha. then studied at church canteen. it was great great great LUHHH! (((: i'm loving it. i drew a HUGE plaster for her. i'd mend her wounds for her no matter what. heeee.

I LOVE YOU VAL SING! (:

alright world, i'll end it with a poem.

initials of yours,

scribbled all over my notebook,

no one was to peek or take a look,

images being flown across the room,

of me and you,

takes away the gloom.

ever so delighted,

i feel my heart beating.

as i climb down the stairs leaping.

but as i see or hear you

fooling around with her,

speaking about her,

lil by lil my heart starts to shatter.

i start tobuild a wall

surrounding my heart,

day by day,

the stones pile up,

making the wall thicker for anyone to enter it.

the only one to make the slightest crack,

is YOU.

then maybe i'll fall into the pit of love again.

with your arms there to cushion my fall.

-amerie

2006-09-18T19:13:00.000+08:00

hello!
i've replied most of my tags alr. ((:
hurr.
ytd was....erm..alright?
i guess so.
i shant say more.
ha.
today was funny while studying.
it was a great time learning physics and all.
good good. :DD
lalala.

why dont you just look my way..

2006-09-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

look world, theresa said that i rock. for the first time la.

Tweeeza is doing art. Yeah la, youre hot la, Doralynn Tan. (: says:
haha.YOU ROCK LA, OK.
AMERIE; i cant stop thinking about you says:
haha. thanks ah
AMERIE; i cant stop thinking about you says:
but you rock more right
AMERIE; i cant stop thinking about you says:
ha
Tweeeza is doing art. Yeah la, youre hot la, Doralynn Tan. (: says:
haha. no la.
Tweeeza is doing art. Yeah la, youre hot la, Doralynn Tan. (: says:
you rock the most. :D

there you go. and i'm un-emo-ed alr. yay? hurr. something is wrong with me. its like i mood swing damn bloody fast! omg. somebody help... )):

i cant stop thinking about you.
everyday i stare at my handphone, waiting for a message from you.
it dont have to be long but just a 'hello' will do.
but you see, you dont seem to care.
well, maybe it's you dont know my feelings for you.
or at least, you dont wanna think about it at all.
so you just ignore that fact.
well you know what...
i'm still gonna wait.
no matter what.
it pains my heart whenever you speak about her.
but you see, i dont blame you cause, YOU DONT KNOW.
i'm right here waiting.

hey you! you know who you are, thanks for cheering me up. well appreciated yeah? loves! (:

2006-09-14T18:14:00.000+08:00

yo world. ((:

school's been great today.
i'm a happy kid.
hurr.
and I'M COOL.
i'm the coolest kid ever. yay

amerie rocks. say yes.

shhhhhhhhh. peace is good once in a while.

2006-09-13T21:20:00.000+08:00

you know what?
i feel cheated but i dont care.
i've had enough of everything alr!
rahhh-
stupid ppl living stupid lives.
i cringe at the sight of school.
i've got nothing to look forward to anymore.
i hate my life la.
but.....
maybe things can be good at times.
let me intro to the world my new found friend, THERESA MISSO.
she rocks la. haha. made me laugh when i was sad...
hmmm. hard to come by. HA. AND like just knew her btw..mmm.maybe not just...BUT we just started chatting though, does THAT count? hurr. POWER there.
anyway, cheer up girl. things will be fine. (: you still got me to pour out all your troubles to. heh.

mannn. i cant believe myself. i feel stupid YET AGAIN. oh man. YOU! YOU! YOU! RAHHH- )):

maybe you never loved me.... i wouldnt know anyway.

2006-09-12T13:23:00.000+08:00

mann. what's it like being sick? RAHH- dislike it much. and i'm hungry. ): there's no food. how sucky can things get? mann. i'm bored. argh. i'm starting to get oh-so-random you know. haaahah.

i realised. i suddenly love church. the people around are so great to be with. it's like everything falls into place just being with them. all the silly things we do. haha. like playing pranks on each other. hah. all the laughter. really feels great. (: blockcatching, blind mice. haha. yes yes. deprived childhood. WHATEVER. say whatever you want. but you see, it's the fun you have with the people, not how childish we are or whatever. wait till you play then you'll know how fun it really is. it's a bundle of joy really. i guess it'll be our weekly sunday routine to go play! HURR. though there are ppl in church that i'd really like to catch up with..ehh. i guess they're kinda busy with their own lives. ah wells. masses will do. sheesh.

heh. val is on the way here. YAY. another moving and talking species will be in the house. :D i'm off to watch tv now i guess. head hurts.

i still love you; i always will. we just weren't meant to be.

2006-09-11T18:51:00.000+08:00

okay world. STOP!

stop it with the lame comments and posts alr lahh. it's getting very irritating aight?even though you guys might hate them and all, i guess maybe it's really immature to do all this. no need to go all out and do these kinda stuff alr. it's lame and unneccessary. instead of going online and doing anonymous tags, maybe you should take out a book and read instead eh? it'd be fun and maybe you'll learn something more for the day. :D i've learnt to be nice. so you should too. you'll be repaid for the nice things you do. kay? and if you're my friends who've been tagging, thanks, but..no thanks. it's not doing any good i guess? it's making everything worse and worse and it cant get any worse ya know. i've decided if she cant be mine, why not just be friends. friends will do. she's still nice la. no matter what. nothing will change it okay? uhhh....yeah.

okay world, hate me now if you wanna.

i'm amerie and always will be amerie. cheerio.

2006-09-10T19:39:00.000+08:00

okay. i can i shall leave her alone then ((:
haha. i'm gonna have lotsa fun watching a show tmr! yay.

2006-09-09T15:19:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna stoop down so low to level one, that is, the level which you are at. i mean come on, you think i didnt know you guys did all those stuff ON PURPOSE? hey, i'm not dumb you know. i've known her for god-knows-how-long before you la okay? dont act as if you are aight with me when you're actually not. and look, if you're gonna say that i'm doing that, think twice okay? look ~~girl~~boy, grow up will you? damn sec oner. and guess what? i saw your friend just now. hmm. interesting hair ehh. i mean it. anyone is better than you la. come on, use your damn taekwondo on me. i'm waiting. let's see what the rest of the world does when they find out what a ~~bitch~~bastard you are. damn, why you of all people. SHEESH. haha. i'm laughing while i type this, it's just SO hilarious that you try and be sacarstic but in the end it's sucha failed attempt cause no one understands what you're typing cause...lemme see...your english rocks? uh huh. totally. maybe i'll end it here eh. too much for you to absorb i guess? and look, you just got HER into trouble by blogging about your ROMANTIC trip to esplanade. what a great ~~girl~~FRIEND you are to her. HAHA. ((:

lalala. liars go to hades. for your info, hades means hell.

i know you hate me laaa. but...i'm okay with unrequited love. ((: I love you!

unrequited means one-sided love,if you dont understand.

okay so..PEOPLE SAY I'VE BECOME MEANER. HAVE I? sacha says," NO AMERIE, I LOVE YOU" valerie SING says, " i love you mentor, always will ((:" caleb says," you rock joker." yeahhh. there's so much more to say..but you see, my hand is tiring out. :D

i'm so proud of myself la. haha. lalalalalalalalala. i love jamie quek. i love joanne yao. i love liz chng. (: yayy. school is reopening. WOOHOO. surely got show on monday. HAHAHA

2006-09-07T21:27:00.000+08:00

i realised that i was so dumb. i wish that i never even knew you in the first place. i bet you guys purposely wanted to see me ytd at sentosa. holding hands, holding onto each other. please, give me a break. i had enough when i was tgt with you. why cant you just grow up? if you're gonna tell me that you're VERY mature with your r/ships, forget it. i wont take that crap. look, why was i so stupid to believe you and not others. i thank god that i actually took the initiative to break up with you. you kept treating me like a toy. even now. LOVE is not a game alright. shit man, i'm dumb. i wish that i never called you that night. so i wouldnt have found out things i didnt wanna. dammit la. RAHH- i hate this. i hate it. i hate it. ~~I HATE YOU.~~

i dont want school to reopen. so i dont have to see you. why is it that it took me till now to find out that i've been fooled by you. and wtheck. and i feel like punching someone. stupid asshole. i thought you were my friend la seriously. even you can stop me from punchign th walls and all but you were like stabbing me fro mthe back over and over again. what's the difference? if WE DID NOT STAY BACK THAT FRIDAY, we woudl never have known you. fuck you la. ~~bitch~~bastard. whatever la. my knuckles are bruised. i'm burnt. wow. I LOVE MY LIFE? maybe.

on a lighter note, I LOVE VALERIE SING ((:

yayy! i love my church friends la. they make me so freaking happy .sentosa would've been the BEST DAY OF MY LIFE if not for @!#@$%^&^&*) rahhhhhhhhh- idiots.

i cant believe my eyes. i feel stupid!! oh damn. i wanna cry you know. shut up amerie,you'll live.

all you said, were just lies.

and eunice png! i am not a GUY! tskk!

2006-09-07T16:40:00.000+08:00

am i suppose to blog for you?
ohhh.what the heck!
hahahahah
anyway, it's been a long time since i've blogged here.
missed me?
well.
take care. (:
you're pretty happy with life now huh? (:
all the best.
-nat

2006-09-03T18:27:00.000+08:00

oh man. i miss my BESTIE la. with all that balling and my commitments last time, we nvr really got the time to have a heart to heart talk lah! man. SEE BESTIE, I MISS YOU OKAY! i was just looking thru the pictures and i happened to think of you. tsk. jamie misses you too! though yes, you DO go out with us, but not as often as you used to la buddy. would love to have the ever so great SNGWEI back you know. okay.

((: today's been great. i love it. i love it. I LOVE IT. :DDD though i am still very insecure. i dont really know why though. it's like aiyah. HEH. waddaheck, i'm still living life as it is.. heeh. i cant wait for rally tmr night!!!! WOO HOO! (: lalalala. so happy know.

Could it be,

You and I,

Never imagined

Could it be,

Suddenly,

I'm fallin' for you

Could it be,

You were right here beside me,

And I never knew

That it's you.

2006-09-02T11:13:00.000+08:00

you see sometimes, good things come to an end.
and i guess my good thing was alr coming to an end.
it's just that i took a while to let it do so.
but once it was gone.
i was like waddaheck, life goes on.
hell yeah, its gonna be hard.
but i'll live it thru.
i'll get over it.
and i'll do it with the help of my FAMILY and my FRIENDS.
i love them.
the love i have for them will NEVER ever change.
i know it.
i've realised what a fool i was. DAMN AMERIE, it took you long.

oh yeah, QUEEN, thanks. i'm all hyped up alr. (((: tell you stories sometime YES? loves!

just leave me alone please.i'm over.

there's someone out there for me,
I know she's waiting so patiently,
can you tell me her name?
this life long search is gonna drive me insane

How does she laugh how does she cry,
what's the color of her eyes,
does she even realize,
I'm here

where is she, where is she,
where is she,where is this beautiful girl,
who is she, who is she,who's gonna complete my world?

did i mention i love eunice png? she's a joy! ((: (eh! you better be happy i mention you kay!)

2006-08-28T19:24:00.000+08:00

i've got no comments on this.
i dont know what to say.
all i can say is i'm SHOCKED.
aiyar.
i'm confused.
i'm in a terrible state.
i'm not me even though i pretend that i am.
it's come to the time when i've realised,maybe i can be on my own.YA RIGHT.
you wish amerie.
RAHH- whatever.
i miss YOU.
though you dont know.but i'm not in the right state of mind to face you however.
give me time.
fuck the world.

stay away---- I BITE!

2006-08-12T19:55:00.000+08:00

REVAMPED! ((:

loves it! *snaps fingers

2006-08-10T20:36:00.000+08:00

NOW YOU SEE the braces.

now you dont. ((:

LOVE this KIDDO! :D

2006-08-10T19:14:00.000+08:00

woohoo!
today was superb.
movie outing.HEH.
my super ex girlfriend is a super funny show la.
though it was a rather sexual show NOT sad show! hahahah. (inside joke)
HAHA.
met baby at 0900 at kovan then ate the ever so delicious mac&cheese. ((:
loves it!
then trained down to paragon at around 0930.
baby had dental today! and guess what?
she removed her braces. hurr.
i'm SO honoured to be the first to see her without it. :D jamie would be second and val would be third.HAHA
and baby looked pretty &better,though she dont think so.
OH WELLS, MY opinion counts la! even jamie thinks its nice too!
rahhhh-
oh yeah...did i mention jamie kiddo came down to meet us too?heh.
it was fun. love that kiddo.
hah.
then collected retainers and homed. ((:
that was our day.
i loved it loved it.

2006-07-23T19:53:00.000+08:00

its the 23rd.
and boy oh boy,i ever knew it'd be this way.
i dont know if i can hold on to this.but i wna though.
im just very confused.
everything is coming as a whole.all the problems just rushing in.
my mind is whirling in.
i feel so tight.
my head's spinning.
i dont know what to think.

i was out at church today.
homed at arnd 5plus 6.
i didnt feel like gg home though.
i listened to my music and the songs tht played just played.
i dont know if its coincidence but..
first song was drive mself crazy then best in me then grow old with you then notice me.
its like so wth.
i wanted to cry.
but i just kept holding those tears back.
i told myself,what am i crying for?
there's nothing wrong.
everything's fine.
relax.
but nah..i dont know.

i reached home.
headed to my room.
sat down on the floor and just cried my heart out.
all the memories hitting me like a wave.
i just wish that everything would be like before.
where there were no problems AT ALL.
but of course.
i know that it's so impossible.
but well.
I DONT KNOW.
i really dont.

my mood's changing like fuck.
i'm so tired.
physically and mentally.
i'm about to shatter into tiny pieces.
my heart feels so cold.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHH!

)): )): )): )):

i'm fine.i'm fine.

heroes have their right to bleed too.

happy tenth month.love you baby girl.

2006-07-10T14:37:00.000+08:00

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2006-07-04T18:10:00.000+08:00

muahahaha.
it's been a long time since i've blogged here.
did you guys miss me?
muahahaha.
anyway. i'm bored.
waiting for this jerk to call me. (:
wheee!!
heehee.
okay you guys take care.
i rock!

nat

2006-06-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

i nvr knew the "BEEP" song was so much laughter la! heh.
and swensen's sticky chewy chocolate tub is REALLY sticky.heh.
gosh.
ytd was a long day.no details.nah-ah.
im too tired.
:D
thanks for being there accompanier. ((:
ehh im so bloody bored right now.yawnnn.
i've got hot news!
heh heh.
HAPPY GUESSING.heehee.

i rock. ((:

2006-06-16T12:58:00.000+08:00

so retarded!

they are BESTIES! :D look at ben's eyes.haha

awww.so sweet.

mentor and mentee!

cherlyn,COOKIE MONSTER and LEROY!! hah

what gooooood food!(thnks uncle sly!)

accompanier!!!:D:D

tsktsk.accompanier's greedy!!

look there! accompanier is eating AGAIN! HAHA

okay.so that was BEN'S BIRTHDAY! :D :D :D :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN BEN!!!

2006-06-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

ANNE-MARIE CHER IS OFFICIALLY GOING MAD!!

MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD MAD

see i told you.
aiyah!!!!

words of the GREAT ONE are wisdom(:

2006-06-14T21:38:00.000+08:00

okay let's see.
con camp is over.
i'm so sad. AIYAH.
): ): ): ):
okayy..

last night had dinner with accompanier(:
felt so light hearted.i can tell her anything la. :D:D
yayy!
so after dinner,accompanier wanted to walk home.
and i wanted to go to punggol park to meet my parents.
then we walk walk walk and i decided no to go in the end.
so i walked to the bus stop and jut nice,my bus PASSED by.
): so accompanier ACCOMPANIED me!! so sweet ah.
hah.

today, was havoc i tell you.
nth much to say la.
aiyeer.
accompanier didnt accompany me today.
tskk. IGNORE ME LOR.dont friend you laa.HURR.kidding. :D

yuppp.this is my day.

question of the day:"have i changed a lot after camp??"

hmm.i wonder.i kinda think so.whatever.

2006-06-06T21:12:00.000+08:00

lalala.
sorry ah.
i've been kinda down lately,so have not been blogging since that day.
ehh.
moodswings here and there.
hmm.
so yeah.
come back soon pls baby.
im waiting.

2006-06-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

its been 19 days ever since i blogged man.WTH lah.omg.
ahaha.
you see when i blog here i DO NOT have ANY inspiration AT ALL.
so there.
(:
i'm ending it here.
HEEHEE.
loves it! (:

2006-05-16T20:03:00.000+08:00

it's cos of these ppl like, sauyan! lynn! annabelle! choi! lydia! caroline! alethea! that keep me going in class.today was so freaking boring.and alethea didnt come to school.tskk.missed her okay.really.im not lying.HAHA.anyway,so we were so bored in class and we decided to play concentration.HEH.

let's see we also got back our maths,chinese and ss.liek shit lah.congrats to me.i like FAILED everything.hoho.one word-DEAD MEAT.ehh.that's two.see! i failed my maths.like shit lah.oh wells im gonna have to mug hard or i can say goodbye to my life.like whatever lah.i dont even wanna talk abt it.SHEESH.make my hair stand.roar!

and then sauyan was in no mood to play with us cos of results too.so yeah.

AND OH OH!!! did i tell you i'm the KING of concentration!?!?!? haha.and annabelle is the queen.shhhhh.its incest.dont say ah.hahah!so that means i have three wives.hurhur.my wife outside.my wife in class.my queen in concentration.HAHA.class rocks(:

yesyes.that's about all.(:

well,I LOVE MY REAL WIFE AND KIDS.they rock my undergarments.(: i love that baby of mine.my lil sweetheart.

baby,you make my heart melt.you're my only one.i wont runaway with another woman.cos you're the one for me.(:

2006-05-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

since she blog for me i'll blog for her.
haha.i'm nice okay.well she doesnt know that i'm blogging for her. (:
hmmm.
everything seems okay alr.
well at least i hope it is.
i miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss miss you alot. (:
waiting for you to call me. ((:
hee hee.
yawns.
am tired alr lar.
i also dunno what to say alr.
haha.
lalalalala.

2006-05-06T16:14:00.000+08:00

its been donkey-ma-zonkey years ever since i blogged man.
like WTH.
maybe not I blog but hurhur(:
lalalala.
many things going on recently.
lemme see.
there's THAT,THAT and THAT.
well.
it's just THAT.
yeah,whatever.
i dont really give a shite anymore cos you see,what i do or say doesnt really matter.
so i'll jut go with something like.."~~yes baby~~."

so...ytd dinner at SEOUL GARDENS was superb! HAHA.
my cousins rock lahhh.
their boyfriends too.
haha.
so fun so fun.
a day away from parents at least. :D
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVEEEEE IT.
ahahha.
and oh yes,the cheese cake was HEAVENLY.
HAHA.

okayokay.
i'll end here.
((:
im kinda happy.

imissMYprettybabygirl.

2006-04-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

wha..
this blog is dying.
wha..
today the netball game was crap.
amerie was QUITE angry at someone.
then vent it out on me!!!
wah lao can!
she like push me lor.
then pam go hit me where gris hit.
hmph!
you guys are so mean!!!!
hmph.
dont wanna friend you anymore!!

//nat

2006-04-09T20:57:00.000+08:00

lets see.
ive got tons of work to be done.
work like...i dont even know.
but there really is ALOT.

sam reminded me about bio.OMG lah.i like forgot abt it.

tht's THREE mindmaps btw.
PROTEINS FATS CARBO.
ergh.

how how how tell me.
shites.
i guess im gonna do it later.
lalala.

im going crazy.
i think there's a tumour in my head.
cos its throbbing like mad.
tell me how!

okay i found out what homework there is alr.
LIT-not done BIO MINDMAPS-not done
congrats.lit i got two ESSAYS somemore.
RARR RARR RARR.

congrats amerie.you rock. :D

im gonna go off now.get my work done....YEAH RIGHT!

2006-04-07T20:08:00.000+08:00

this week...was...GREAT.

:D

to someone: im so sorry that ive been getting so pissed off at you.its just that you promised me certain stuff and yet.the same things are happening still.its like.I DONT KNOW.nvm.ill go my way.you'll go yours alright?i guess we just wont click anymore huh.its just you and her now.it used to be the three of us.but.hmm.well.i guess SHE took me away?or however you wanna put it..im no more a bestie to you.will nvr be huh.aiyah.i dont know.i give up lah.

okay. got that off my chest.maybe i should go isolate myself from everyone since they dont wanna be around me.hm.

ill stop here.EMO EMO EMO.yuck.

BYE.

2006-04-02T20:15:00.000+08:00

ever felt that you regret doign something so much but you cant do anything to change the fact that it has alr happened?man.i hate this feeling.why must i do things that i know is wrong and disappointing yet i still do it?why am i like that?i can be happy all of a sudden,then the next im sitting at the corner of my bedroom crying to myself.and no one knows.theres seriously something wrong with me but i just dont know what.i dont know what my problem is.but there's just this barrier in my mind that allows me frm thinking straight nowadays.i think its the lack of sleep or something.why is it when you have somethign so great,you dont treasure it but when its gone you want it back so much.so many things are taken for granted.like how i take you for granted.you're the greatest gift that has ever happened to me and yet,i have to throw it all away.why am i so dumb.tell me WHY!?ive gone too far this time.i hate myself.if im not forgiven,im gonna hat emyself forever.this is just so not worth it.DAMMIT.

~~sitting at the corner of the bedroom floor,~~
after the slammed door,
silent cries,
swollen eyes,
nobody knows.

2006-03-31T18:07:00.000+08:00

booyah ppl! (:
its friday! yayy!not.
blahhh.

thats short.wow.
bye

2006-03-29T20:42:00.000+08:00

hellohello.
i am blogging again.like yayy.
im using my microphone.hee.fascinating.
like wow.
this is fun.
but i have to go offline alr lar.
dumbass sister.
goodbye.

2006-03-26T11:37:00.000+08:00

then she pulled out a pen and surprised me
when she wrote her number on my hand
then she was gone, from now on
i'm gonna be a different man

lets see.im kinda bored right now.theres like nothing to do here at home.lalala.i cant wait for monday.so i dont have to stay home in this place.AH WTH. (: see,im smiling.okay that was random.oh whtever.i feel as if im gonna die.i cant take the stress.wait.im perfectly fine.ARENT I?oh waddaheck.what am i saying.

oh ytd was the funniest thing.jessica was saying abt a certain someone's hair,then she was like that person has style and all.unlike the rest of us.i was like yeah.for a girl.then she was like its SUPPOSED to be boyish?im like yeah?she was like OMG.okay.HAHAHAHAAHAHHA.hilarious i tell you.

okay.i kinda didnt call a certain someone last night.SO SO SO SORRY.i made yo uwake up early somemore.sorry aye.didnt mean it.im forgiven alr arent i?yesyes.i am.shites.im like talking to myself.you know what?ill end this ~~fuckshit~~ here.goodbye.

2006-03-24T20:06:00.000+08:00

im going MAD.
i am i am i am!
i need space.
SHOO SHOO SHOO!
you,you and YOU! go away lah.

some ppl arh..think their hair is damn nice.PLS LAH.
im not saying mine is nice or whatever.matter of fact,it sucks.but you!? OMG LAR.get a life.
disgusting much.stop ridiculing yourself man.DOUBLE TSK.

//amerie

2006-03-23T19:06:00.000+08:00

hmm.okayy.....today was.....INTERESTING.i realise that alot of funny things happen in a day.but we only choose to remember the bad things tht happen.like wht the hell las.now i know why life ALWAYS seem to suck all the same.hmm.so yeah.i decided to jot down all those FUNNY and amusing stuff that happened.like yayy! (:

everything funny started after recess.first it was PHYLLIS.Oh my GOD!so retarded lar.today KHOOPS didnt come.but we had a relief teacher.then she gave us worksheets to do.but OBVIOUSLY,we didnt do them. (: DUH!? so anyway,phyllis wanted to do tht donating thingy.so then,she took out the MYSTERIOUS one dollar coin and put it on her table,then she bent down to take out the envelope.SO i took that chance to take the MYSTERIOUS dollar away and passed it to alethea.AHAH.so when phyllis looked up again,she got a shock and didnt know where it was.so then,she knew it was me,but i,THE GREAT ONE,convinced her that it wasnt me who took it.so yeah.then i was like.."aye..phyllis is see your wallet.."then she handed it over and i asked lydia to put the dollar back in.so lydia said,phyllis i see ah....so yeah.then lydia took out the dollar then she said,PHYLLIS! wht is this! the dollar coin was in your wallet all the while! HAHA.so then,phyllis put the dollar on her table again and bent down to put back her wallet so i asked caroline to take the dollar coin again.but caroline kept laughing.so phyllis knew alr lor.AHHA.attempt failed! :D heh.that's damn retarded.now phyllus knows what REALLY happened...BWAHAHAHHA.

then after that was physics.sheryl ah sheryl.SHERYL YEO.i was like...hmmm.i like the number nine and she was like..i like SIX.how sick can she get.that was bad enough she had to add on.i think MRS ONG has nice finger nails.and think she FRENCHED them.i was like...AHAHAH.(obviously thinking wrongly.)then i said,"imagine THAT!"sick stuff lar.and yes.i kept TOUCHING her today.and i have something going on with her. ((: yeah right.you WISH lar RYL! hahahahahahh.whtever.she kept copying my work too!dont know wht's her prob!but she copy also copy wrongly,try to correct me,in the end im RIGHT!TSK!haha.DOUBLE TSK!we also kept staring at different ppl seeing their reaction.oh wells.we were kinda bored.physics is ALWAYS fun. (:

then before physics class, my and lynn were talking abt the tamil and malay, chinese programme thing.then i told lynn everyone doing tamil in our grp lar.then she say help her change to tamil.so madee was walking past,then i asked her to tell mahal to write lynn's name in tamil.so when we went to maths class i burst out laughing! mahal REALLY changed hername INTO tamil.was damn funny lar.she was like "here lynn,this is for you! your name in tamil" i was like WTH!damn retarded i swear.

then it was REMEDIAL.omg lar.cannot take it.those two nehnehs(nat and sau) kept blowing into my ear and poking it and all.i cannot TAHAN lah.my goodness.my ear turned ALL RED.i was horny pls.TSKTSK.then i had a laughing fit lah.damn retarded.i kept talking rubbis after that.omg.stupid things i do.heh.alethea says im funny.heh.COOLNESS. (:

alrights.ciao peeps.ilovetoday. (:

2006-03-21T18:36:00.000+08:00

amerie amerie amerie amerie
cher cher cher cher
BOO.

i dont knw wht to blog.so there.
bye

2006-03-19T20:09:00.000+08:00

hellohello.
im back once again.
((:
im bored of blogging.
ppl make too much comments.
well..i guess its free for anyone to make comments anyway.
lalala.
im going crazy lar.
well.
EVERYONE is asking me to update.
got nth nice to update abt wht.
well...maybe i DO have nice things to blog abt.
but.they arent for you pricks out there to knw.
lalala. *sly smile

i rock,you suck.
there.
its freedom of speech.

WHATEVER amerie.
-.-

bye world.

2006-03-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

ppl say i haven't been blogging.
well..it IS true lahh.
but heyy.
im sorry lahh.
wht's there to blog abt anyway!
hahaha.
jamie is blur.
and WOLS.
hehe.
and and and.
final destination ROCKS.
today rocks.
POINGBING (:
im bored now.
im like on the verge of falling sick.
heh.
and im laughing!
wow.
today was...hmm.fun?
HEHE.
tiring though.,
lalalala.
:D :D :D :D

im going mad.

ARE YOU MAD!?
heh.
sharene lau.i rock.you dont.gowork at the shop tmr 8am ah.dont forget.HAHA. BLAH.

im so in love with you.

2006-03-13T19:12:00.000+08:00

i dont know what to blog.
so yar.
dont know what to say also.
so yar.
it's like there's nothing to blog.
so yar.
what's wassup with my so yar lar!haha.
so yar.
i think it's cool.hahaha.
so yar.
gotta go now.
so yar.
bye!

2006-03-13T13:29:00.000+08:00

hello hello hello hello hello hello hello. (:

im back once again.
my comp is finally up.
like yayy!
hahahah.
im high.
im really high.
im so happy!
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

~~oh where oh where can my baby be?~~

heh.that was random.la-dee-dum.

bye world. :D

2006-03-04T12:49:00.000+08:00

i've given everything;
i loved you endlessly;
but when it comes to me;
you dont even notice me.

ladeedum.
i keep puking.
wth is wrong with me!?
ahhhhhhhhh.
bestie says im pregnant.
like wth.
go die go die!!!!!
and she said she wanted baby brother.
i said go find me a wife first.
HAHA.
and she named...BWAHAHAHAH.
sicko lar.TSK.
i still love my bestie. (:

i finally saw ALLY!
like yayy!
everyone say yayy!
ahahah.
this morning was hilarious btw.
bouncy beds,hardcore...bwahaha.
and and...the recordings like OMG.

and yayy! BESTIE 2 can finalyl get out of her house. (((:
happy happy.

i've gtg church later.heee.
cat class.whooo.
i cant wait fr holidays and MID YEARS ((:
laaaaaadeeedum.

aight.ciao peeps.

2006-03-03T15:09:00.000+08:00

wha.
you good.
say i irritating.
whatever lar.
hmph.
dont friend you le.

2006-03-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

TSK.
some ppl are too extra man.
OMG.

2006-03-01T18:58:00.000+08:00

BOO!

this stupid woman here has not been blogging.so yar.

nat.

2006-02-26T10:45:00.000+08:00

HELLOWELLOFELLOMELLO! (:

things are fine now,
at least i THINK so.
lalala.
i've decided not to blog personal stuff here anymore.
TOO PERSONAL.
hahahah.
okay.
im going crazy lar.
i'm SORRY.

im over the mountain tops now.

//last kiss

2006-02-25T17:10:00.000+08:00

im dying from my rashes.its like some heat rash thing.ah.dang.how tell me now how.it must be RETRIBUTION.im talking rubbish.yesyes.omfg. ): its so itchy lar......i wanna cry.i think there's a fever too.oh my mama.someone save me.all the problems are here gushing to me now.like thanks.

ahhh.im gonna sleep agn.i feel like puking.SCREW THE WORLD.

2006-02-25T10:35:00.000+08:00

no mood to go anywhere,
no mood to do anything,
no mood for school.

oh fuck.

unintentional mistake i made.i swear.my heart hurts knwing that what i've done is making such a jerk outta me.but you see,too late to regret it. ):

dammit lar okay.
i just need someone,
someone here to listen.
not to say anything.
but just listen.
cause no matter who you are,
or how close to me you are,
it'll still be my fault even how much i wanna explain myself.

and to you: im really sorry okay? i know it wont be much of a cure.but that's the least i could do.i've got no one on my side anymore.the ball is yours.choose what you wanna do with it lar.cos,i still treasure that friendship alot.i swear.so there.i've said all i have to.

and to all of you friends:yesyes,its my fault.hate me please.im going to bear the consequences of what ive done okay.i made mistake.i knw that its wrong.the least you guys can do now,is just to be there a little while.no one knws how i feel now.it aint anyone's fault seriously.how could it be? when its an AGREEMENT.and everyone's blaming cos i went over to HER house?just being freaking unreasonable lar.but you knw what,its not like any of you would actually care anyway.so ya.goodbye.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..im going to end here lar.fucked up world.i just wish that i could just disappear from this world.so that i wont have to face anybody.

2006-02-24T10:51:00.000+08:00

boo!
it's been a long time since i've come right?
well.
i'm back.
i'm bored.
so i just decided to give her a shock by blogging for her.
shhhh.
hahaha.
well.we aint that close anymore.
she's got her friends,
and i've got mine.
we're still friends but no more close.
i miss those times that we spent together with sngwei, nice one, TIA.
but it aint gonna be the same right?
well, all that's left are just memories.
all that's left are what's close to my heart.
though it will never come back.
i'll always treasure it.
love! ((:

nat.

2006-02-22T20:30:00.000+08:00

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

LOVELY DAY YES. (:

2006-02-20T19:41:00.000+08:00

im going insane!!!!!!!!!!!! (: i've been studying alot lately.how cool is that!its good right?i guess i've got pretty much off my mind.im happier now.im like the old me.the HYPER OL' AMERIE.i love that.i love love love it. :D

so today after school had rehearsal.and MRS ANNIE ONG ROCKS! she like cancelled the test! whoo! (: lalalala.so after the rehearsal,i went to canteen with minpei.then sng said she needed to buy stuff from kovan.so,HUIMIN,MINPEI,RYL,SNG,JAMIE and ME went kovan. (: in the bus was so retarded.that lady,CURSES!keep banging me and jamie.nehnehPIANG(courtesy of nic).so BESTIE felt like eating PIZZA HUT.jamie went for tuition.then so we went to eat there lor.uh huh.i think i need money.SERIOUSLY.ahhhh.dang.

so after eating,we went to popular.we spent so long over there.omg.CRAZY i tell you.then after that, we went to MACS to study.jamie came to join us,sng left.we studied like for A WHILE,and i mean A WHILE.hahaha.then we left at 6.and so im home. :D i feel so good bout this week.heh.

was in the bus with ryl.talked bout interesting stuff.kinda reminds me bout the time where me and bestie sat in the 113 bus.and yadayadaya.ahhaha.oh wells.it was a good talk.sometimes,its godo to have such talks.gets everything off your mind yah. :D well ryl,i've told you some rather shocking stuff and so have you.rest assured,ill shut up. (: you rock EX. lalala.

i found out some RAHTER INTERESTING things myself today.BWAHAHAHAH.and i just cant help but laugh about it.sooooo interesting i swear.my god.i've yet to find out more.heehee.thanks to you.

tmr is investiture.i dont feel like going thru it.its like another student council i swear.omg lar.i cant believe it.why oh why.AHAHAH.nevertheless,I ROCK. lalala.

and you you you! stay away i swear.or im gonna get a HIV INFECTED PERSON TO SCREW YOU.UGH.

live the present,and you're it. (:

2006-02-19T12:05:00.000+08:00

LITTLE THINGS

It's summer, everybody's out

And you're right over there

I'm staring while you play around

With that pencil in your hair

It's sad, in your eyes

I'm just one of the guys

I'm so into you, you don't have a clue

There's nothing you can do to stop me now

You got me falling, through noticing, the little things you do

Putting a hold right over me

Funny as it seems, you make me dream

Doing the little things, those little things you do

I saved up for binoculars

I bought them last weekend

To watch you playing badminton

With all your slutty friends

Maybe it's time, I gave up,drew the line

My friends say I should, I wish that I could

But there's nothing they can do to stop me now

I call up your house, but I'm always out of luck

Keep hanging around, but that's never good enough

And you don't reply when I talk to you, I shout at you

But you don't blink an eye, it makes me wonder why

You got me falling, through noticing, the little things you do

Putting a hold right over me

Funny as it seems, you make me dream

Doing the little things, those little things you do

but....i've drawn the line and have let go. (:

ask me again,this time i DECLINE.

2006-02-18T11:41:00.000+08:00

you took my hand,
i was nvr to let go,
i couldnt take it no longer,
i thought i was strong,
so i continued holding on.
but im tired,
i cant hold on anymore.
im letting go.
my feelings for you,
arent the same.
you're just a friend.
i'll love you as that.
and nth more.
i hope you understand.
but i'll always be there,
to be a friend,
nth more than
just a friend.
i've left you,
i'm nvr coming back,
how do you feel now?
i bet you dont even care.
it wont make any difference if im not there.
i was transparent to you,
i just needed your attention,
but you nvr seemed to notice.
you dont need me around anymore.
i felt used,
i felt unloved.
but you see,i ignored that.
but now i know you'll find that someone else,
who'll treat you better than i did,
who'll treat you nice.
i wish you all the best.
the greatest you could do for me now is just SMILE FROM DEEP WITHIN.
take care love.

HELLOWELLOMELLOFELLO! (:

ytd had PTM in the night,i passed my wallet to pea,she passed it to joanne,joanne passed it to nat and nat passed it to sng.OMG LAR.ended around 8 plus 9.then so went dinner with MINPEI,RYL,NIC.ate at KFC.and i changed my name!(inside joke) heh.but oh wells.it was darn fun.ate till bout 9plusplus.then homed with MINPEI! (:the uncle was weird in the cab.im serious.he's talking and talking about some BEST FRIEND STUFF and BLAHDEBLAHDEBLAH.and then!i reached home.hahahahaha.YAYY!the fare was $6.40 i think.so ex right.HAHA.then called nat.talked a while.she fell asleep then ya.then i called MINPEI.talked for like FIVE MINUTES!then she HUNG UP ON ME.tsk.then so i came online.did wht i need to do,then slept.yeppyepp.it was like that.

going study soon.byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

=D

2006-02-16T20:41:00.000+08:00

i feel like the biggest fool ever.
i dont know why,
but i just do.
you've slipped off my grip.
no longer mine.
you'll be leaving ANYTIME.
i know very well i still do love you.
anyone can tell.
but i know that im your past.
you're nvr gonna come back.
maybe you're right,
we just dont trust each other enough.
but why.
why must there always be others in the picture.
why cant it just be me and you?
im listening to the rainbow connection songs.
those were the days huh.
i cant hold those tears back.
i feel so emo all of a sudden.
i always was from the day you said we'd be friends.
there are so many what IFs in my mind.
WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF.
but i guess it's too late now.
no one understands how i feel.
even if i wanted to go back,
you'd not return.
you said you rather stay as friends,
if that makes you happy.then okay.im fine with it.
but if you ever wanna return,
im always here.
TRUE LOVE LASTS.
at least i know i love you.
you mean too much,
remaining as friends is just a waste.
at least that's what i think.
around my friends,
i fucking dont give a shit.
but when im back home,
i start to think of you.
i choke on my tears.
but they eventually still drip from my eyes.
no one ever made me cry this much before.
you said not to blame you if you leave,
then i wont.
cos i am to blame.
it's my OWN FUCKING FAULT.

i cry as i type away,
i cry as i rant away,
i cry as i watch you SLOWLY leaving.

2006-02-12T00:15:00.000+08:00

HELLOWELLOFELLOMELLO! :D

MR ask me to blog for her.
so here i am (:
she wants me to blog our conversation,
like so retarded.
cos we are basically talking abt not-so-random things.
anyway,
i got her nerds whatever sweet thing (:
be honoured okay amerie cher.
and thanks for tat gummy love necklace,
im honoured too (:
kay im going off,
cos i need to concentrate on the conver.
nights to all.

(: NOBODY.

2006-02-11T14:54:00.000+08:00

All that is mine is yours thats what I said
Treat you with love and respect in every way
You want it I gave you, you need me I was there
Now you treat me like if Im not here
I loved you I need you, dont wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more, I feel Im dyin inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?

you called me to meet you,
so did your bidding,
tell me to this and that,
i didn't say anything.

but then i see you in a corner of the station,
rendevouz-ing with someone i truly hate.
on a one-night date.

you know i get jealous easily,
then why are you doing this to me?
i dont know baby,this isnt what we're supposed to be.

i love you so much,
but i cant even feel the love or touch you.
sometimes i wonder how much i even mean to you.

i feel invisible around you baby.
why cant you just be my pretty lady.
the hurt i bear,
is nothing compared to being stabbed.
FORGET IT.

You say you love me pretty lady and your down for me
And so I make this promise girl to always be your everything
Turn down the lights the music up and put your hand in mine
And let me show you girl these feelings that I hold inside
Never wanna be without you girl cause you're my pretty lady
I lose my mind everytime, your kisses drive me crazy
So tell me baby, do you feel for me what I feel for you?
Do you love me girl like I love you?

Now if Ive never said it, then I'ma say it now
In front of the whole world baby girl,
I'ma say it proud I'm still in love with you, even thru the things that we been thru
I can still smile, I can still say my heart belongs to only you now

iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouilove
iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou

23 i love yous.

2006-02-10T18:18:00.000+08:00

i feel like crap.
goodbye world.
no one seems to care about me no more.

2006-02-09T20:01:00.000+08:00

my nose is stuffed up,i cant breathe!!!!!!!!!!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.i am DYING.someone help.well,IF ONLY MY REMEDY WOULD BE HERE.boooo.

sometimes its like i feel dumb.
sometimes i just feel like im being used.
sometimes i just ignore of what im thinking,cos everything aint true.
sometimes i want your attention.
sometimes i just want you.
sometimes i wanna keep my mind off things,then i see you pass.
sometimes i want time alone with you.
sometimes i just need you.
sometimes i feel so insecure.
sometimes i feel unloved.
sometimes just sometimes...
but now,EVERYTIME it's about YOU*

-that was written for a special someone out there.iloveyou.

ahhhh.i really am gonna die.i just need to see you.omg.really i do.i need you.im just falling deeper and deeper in love with you.but please.let me know when you've found someone new.uh huh.im gonna go off now.im like gonna black out.shites.bye.

2006-02-06T20:43:00.000+08:00

shite.i forgot what i wanted to type.hm.im too tired.
im gonna rest.ciao peeps. =D

2006-02-05T17:36:00.000+08:00

no one really understands what is going on.well,maybe MARIA does.the HER and the HER thing?i moved a bit too fast.and whoever that '-' person is,you dont know the whole situation okay?but if you want to think it that way.suit yourself.cos only I know the whole story and EVERYTHING that's in between.

okay.look,i dint mean to do all that to you.i made my mistakes.i made you cry.i loved you too much that's why.i cant find us going the same way again.and look,we arent even tgt anymore.so why we just remain as friends?its that too much to ask for?i'm sorry i had to do this.and hurt you even more.but everything that happened is what you asked for.the song below, IS FOR YOU.

.I NEED ALONE TIME.

2006-02-04T14:15:00.000+08:00

i keep listening to many different songs man.and i notice my mood swinging to them.now the song playing is lao shu ai da mi.hmmm.coolness.reminds me of something.or rather someone.and surprisingly,my mind suddenly hurts.im still confused.i dont want this anymore.i should just get away from them.i mean GIRLY GIRLS.

many questions running thru my head.i've yet to make the decision.either way,i'll be the bad guy.so.wht to do.do YOU,person reading this, know what to do? I DONT.ergh.if i want my valentine to be HER,the other HER would be hurt.and if i choose HER,the other HER would be hurt.blah.i should go fuck myself.i feel like such an ass.i dont have to do this.i dont.why did i even start. WHY CANT I HAVE BOTH?

there's this song called notice me.its friggin nice i swear.it explains simply everything.i cant hold my tears back when i listen to it.ahhhh.dang!

NOTICE ME

(I wanna let you know that I'll always love you baby..)

Sometimes I think about everything that we've been through (come on)
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
I love you (I love you too, girl)
And I need you (And I need you too)
So please dont throw our love away...
(Forget me, girl)

Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must of been the first kiss, you told me that
Nobody else in the world made you feel this
I felt the same way too, but nothing stays the same
Im sorry for the tears Im sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets just kiss and say good bye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain to seein' you cry..

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

All that is mine is yours thats what I said
Treat you with love and respect in every way
You want it I gave you, you need me I was there
Now you treat me like if Im not here
I loved you I need you, dont wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more, I feel Im dyin inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared
So if you wake up one morning and Im not there
Just rembemer I loved you, it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

I gave you my good and my bad, my heart and my soul
My trust, my money, my time, what more could you ask
From a man even when times were hard I held out my arms
And held you and even accepted you through whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I gotta let go nights like this
I wish rain drops would fall to cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years of loving someone
Who couldnt love me back and now again
I gotta start from scratch but I know
I've given you my everything

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

uh huh.nice song aint it?yes.ahhhhhhhhhhhh.freak.
im starting to think.....what IF i actually DO like her..and i just agreed to go back to you cos i couldnt stand your reasoning and for the sake of not hurting you i just made my decision.uh huh.somehow.that's what i REALLY think.

SCREW THIS.

2006-02-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

hello mr ((:
mrs invading!
im bored and sick.
where are you mr.
lalalala.
you better confirm what you're suppose t confirm!
you know what i mean, heh.
lovely's temperature rising,
she's hotttt ((:
where's cold little? heh.
im basically crapping away.
MRSMISSMR :DDD
LOVELYLOVESLITTLE :DDD

LOVES TO ALL (:

2006-02-01T19:00:00.000+08:00

decisions change
feelings change
i still dont know wht is going on.
im confused.
this moment i might say this;
another that.
when im with my friends,
ill be thinking another thing.
when im alone i'll just regret wht i've done.
its like I DONT KNOW.

the ppl around might say wht they want but wht I think or feel is the actual thin. cos not everyone knows the WHOLE story behind everything.except the two of us.

i very much want you back.
but im scared everything will happen once again.
you say you're guilty but now yo uwant me back.
that's contradicting,on my part.
each time i've been hurt.
i just kept it to myself.
and i know ive hurt you deeply.
and i cant do anything but to patch with you.
i know it.
im really sorry.
and i knw that isnt gonna cure anything.
that time i asked for a patch all you said was i'll tell you next time.
tht was like you dint even want a patch.
i'm not sure of my feelings for her yet.
i'm not sure of my feelings for you now.
im not sure of anything.
i need time to think.

ah.

2006-02-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

i'm blogging for her again.
my internet is up.
well.
everything has just gone past me so quickly.
i never knew that you'd leave.
i took you for granted i agree.
i'm sorry.
you want me to regret.
well here i am regretting.
sitting in the corner,
crying away.
but you've said that it'll never take place again.
so i finally have given up the idea of loving you.
i'm handing you over to someone new.
i do hope you'll treat her well.
better then how you treated me.
i hope too that she'll love you back.
she'll love you and treasure you,
willing to take care of you more than i do.
now, all i can say is goodbye.
all i've left of you are the memories i hold so close.
take care my dear.
i hereby leave you.
nat

2006-01-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

you held my hand
we walked acres of land
you said you loved me
together we were so free

you put your head against my shoulder
dont leave me till we've grown older
i stroke your face
that day will never take place
i wait for you at the school gate
for that hug and kiss i'd used to get
you run and skipped over to someone whom i used to hate
i just stood there
i did not know how to retaliate

i packed my bags got ready to move out of town
you dint love me
all around me was just a fraud

i wasnt me
my spirits dipped low
cos thats all when you left.

for lovely jamie.

2006-01-31T09:38:00.000+08:00

you came home,
slammed the door,
saw me sitting at the corner of the bedroom floor.

you come over,
stroke my face,
telling me everything was just a passing phase.

i push your hand away,
you got taken aback,
"baby,what's the matter?"
i looked you in the eye,
the tears gushing out.
"you know what's wrong baby.
you brought it upon me.
i wasnt supposed to know
but the signs DID show
you were cheating on me."

i got up and pushed you against the wall.
i kissed you;
the last kiss we ever had.

i turned around
left you standing there
you screamed and shouted as if nth was wrong.
i turned around i said
"baby,im leaving.
no regrets,
no crying.
all i ever knew was that you were lying.
i cant believe that all of this was true.
but baby,it's my fault im in love with you.
you toyed with my heart,
that was a part
a part of me so vital so pure.
was for you,
and you swore
swore nvr to break it and to keep it forever.
well baby,i guess i was wrong to hand it over.
i loved you so much.
i said i'd wait.
but baby,you blew that chance when you said
you've lost your feelings for me.
i'm leaving an imprint of me in your mind.
by giving you the middle finger sign.
IT'S OVER"

i slam the door in your face,
i hear you scream,
"BABY, ALL OF THAT DIDNT MEAN A THING"
my feet were glued to the floor.
i returned to that same door.
i flung it open,
i took the knife,
i aimed it right at my heart.
the last words i ever said was
"this was how you hurt me baby"

this is how the story ended.
it finally has passed.
well,the only thing i can hope for nw is that...
my baby regrets what she has done.

2006-01-22T13:19:00.000+08:00

PPL. I'VE CHANGED MY NUMBER.

kay.bye.

HAHAH! the previous post is a bit screwed but i dont give a shite.bye. =D

2006-01-21T13:01:00.000+08:00

I’ll be your candle on the water,
my love for you will always burn.
I know you’re lost and drifting
but the clouds are lifting.
Don’t give up, you have somewhere to turn.
I’ll be your candle on the water,
’till every wave is warm and bright.
My soul is there beside you,
let this candle guide you.
Soon you’ll see a golden stream of light.
A cold and friendless tide has found you,
don’t let the stormy darkness pull you down.
I’ll paint a ray of hope around you,
circling in the air,
lighted by a prayer.
I’ll be your candle on the water,
this flame inside of me will grow.
Keep holding on, you’ll make it,
here’s my hand so take it.
Look for me, reaching out to show,
as sure as rivers flow,
I’ll never let you go.
I’ll never let you go.
I’ll never let you go...

2006-01-21T12:33:00.000+08:00

"the hard way" by kasey chambers.

If I could do it all again,I wouldn't change a thing.
I'd have you back the way I had you then,
But one thing that I know,
This time I wouldn't make you go.
I'd have you back I wouldn't lose you again,
But I learnt the hard way,I can't have it back what I had then.
Yes I learnt the hard way,and I know I won't have that chance again.
Some nights I sit on my own,with a feeling of alone,
wondering if your ever coming home,but I know why your gone,
I'll be the first to say I'm wrong,but it's hard to spend another night alone.
Cause I learnt the hard way,I can't have it back what I had then.
Yes I learnt the hard way,
And I know I won't have that chance again.
Yes I learnt the hard way,I can't have it back what I had then.
Yes I learnt the hard way,
And I know I won't have that chance again.
Cause I learnt the hard way;

2006-01-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

HELLO ONE AND ALL!
its SAM! blogging for this lazy pig AGAIN.
YOU must be wondering why she didnt blog for so long.
and HERE'S why:
her comp monitor SPOIL.
*all say 'ahhhhh'*
must be because the many zi lian photos it has to show each time the comp starts up.
*ahem ahem*
oh well.
what can i say?
I LOVE MY BESTIE!
wahahahahaha.
and i miss talking to her.
LOTS and LOTS and LOTS.
havent been talking to her in a LOOONG time.
but who cares.
we'll have a catch up session soon.
lalala.
nothing else to say.
TAKECARE, ALL!
wahhahaa.

2006-01-08T19:34:00.000+08:00

im in love with the song I JUST DONT LOVE YOU NO MORE.
aye.it does not mean anything though.but the song is woah.maybe a bit of it lar. =D nice nice.
hahahaha.

For all the years that Ive known you baby
I cant figure out the reason why lately
youve been acting so cold (didnt you say)
if theres a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you dont want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
Im sick and tired of this silly game
dont think that Im the only one here to blame
its not me whos been going round slamming doors

Thats when you turned and said to me
I dont care babe whos right or wrong
I just dont love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, youre gone, my fault, Im sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now its too late to turn it around
Im sorry for the tears Ive made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just dont love you no more

I know that Ive made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesnt make sense to me now that youre gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face

Thats when you turned and said to me
I dont care babe whos right or wrong
I just dont love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, Im sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now its too late to turn it around
Im sorry for the tears Ive made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just dont love you no more

Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just dont love you no more

Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now its too late to turn it around
Im sorry for the tears Ive made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just dont love you no more

uh huh.lalalala.im finally back online.like yayyness! (: its only on weekends though. MISS' birthday is coming! =D countdown countdown! haha.and thanks BESTIE for blogging (:

bye peeps.

AHEM!

2006-01-07T21:44:00.000+08:00

hello people, this is SNGWEI blogging for amerie cher, since i know you guys are oh so bored from reading the same entry again and again. yes yes, she hasnt any internet. i think. maybe she does now. i dont know. haha. but then again. ((: she's been a naughty girl, yes. hahaha.

i have no idea what to say. anyway. i will be blogging again soon yar. hahaha. ((:

2006-01-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

it's so irritating to have soooooooooooooooooooooo many ppl in the house you know! the phone has to be shared,the bathroom has to be shared.i need my own TELEPHONE LINE lar. stupid.
humph.irritating i swear!!!! cant stand it. like wth lar. i need to do my own things.and i need my privacy.and when i use the phone, i get scolded by my bro. but when my bro uses it i have no say. like go die! just GO DIE. neh neh!

school was fine.talks and talks and more talks.nth but talks.and you know what? someone used the EXACT same powerpoint slide EVERY YEAR. like wth lar. she just needs to speak to us,cos if she doesnt,she's got no more authority. hahaha!!! she's sucha loser.i hope all the teachers just knock her off lar.stupid.stupid.stupid.~~turtle.~~
dum dum dee dee. =D im feeling cold now.i need a hug,anyone pls?? ):

my mummy says im lousy.im not.she also says my nick is so sad.well,duh....i am sad.where's nad? my lovely happypill! (:
i miss char! yes char! yes YOU! i miss you!!!!!! humph.

im going crazy now.im not gonna blog anymore.i cant wait for friday lar.damn. =D

till then`

2006-01-03T21:07:00.000+08:00

omg,thoughts running thru my head.

someone told me this...
being indecisive takes up alot of time, and when it drags too long,
it leads to tangled-up situation,which is very bad.

well,i dont really have much to say...BUT

ill wait.no matter what.and i mean it.just tell me when you want me to leave and i wont question you.i'll just go.

that's the love i have for you;deep enough to beat time.ahhh.crap. ):

ILOVEYOU.

2006-01-01T00:34:00.000+08:00

okay.

i guess the new year spirit died down in a matter of...erm.....10min? righteous.im feeling like crap now.i know i shouldnt.and i promised nic i wouldnt be emo and all on NEW YEAR.but still.its just comes back to point where.im fallen HARD.yes.vey hard indeed.the truth hurts.it hurts so bad that i just do not know what to do anymore.oh hell yeah..it hurts.im like just saying over and over again it hurts.i dont ever think ill fall in love again.my heart will just remain with one person.mmhmm.one person that just really meant alot to me. "2005 was a blast but you dont know what 2006 will bringso HAPPY NEW YEAR!" that doesnt seem to apply to me does it? not like i have anything to look forward too.oh mann.this is just a heap of rubbish i've been waiting to say.oh damn.im getting soooooo emo.TOO EMO. i tell you peeps what,i threw my ring across the room and i knew i'll find it cos my heart knew where it was.see..EMO EMO EMO! argh. help. help. help.ill just return to my OLD USUAL SELF.im in the BACHELOR's CLUB with maddy and bestie.is it a good thing.im in a different situation as them.VERY DIFFERENT.how fast things come and go.i'd treasure that relationship.it was the best so far.but it had to end this way.someone tells me it's just temporary.everythiing will be fine soon.sheesh! i hope so.i really do.

it's just great how the year ended this way.all crap.CRAP.CRAP.im feeling like SHIT.my head is so heavy.the more i blog the more ill feel hurt and lost and lonely.okay.ill stop ill stop here.NOW.NOW NOW.

all i have to say is im nvr gonna be in love with anyone anymore.my heart is always with her and will always be.nth will change it.not even TIME.

till then`

2006-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!

bwahahaha.its the new year.and everyone is so frickin HIGH! i swear.omfg! and majority of the ppl online,their nick's are HAPPY NEW YEAR. like wth. hahah.
im high,sng's high,nic's high. EVERYONE's HIGH! like yayyyyyy! (:

hahah. im off! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

(:

2005-12-31T18:55:00.000+08:00

mr told me something,
miss understand how she feels,
even though she didnt tell me so.
and miss is here,
ready to cheer mr on,
and that secret gift she got for me,
mr is so slyyy :D

so mr owe me my xmas wish,
i know it's hard to fufill,
but she'll do it for me somehow (:
and i'll be waiting for tat day,
when she really smile,
from deep within,
and i can see!

when someone falls in love,
the hardest they find is to say the three words.
but when both are in love together,
the hardest they find is to maintain that love they share.
and till their love is torn apart,
the hardest they find is to get back what they lost,
or,
the hardest they find is to forget the love they had before.

RANDOM! (:
takecare mr!
miss is always here for you,
to share your ups and downs!

2005-12-31T15:48:00.000+08:00

thanks BESTIE for updating. (:

well.it seems like this year is gonna end BADLY for me.im waiting to hear my phone beep or ring for an answer.why did it have to end like this?if someone could just tell me.so ther line "im hurt all over" comes to show again. all i have to say is thank you for loving me.

well.bestie wrote a poem for me.i think it really nice.and thanks to jamie for being there last night.i just really had no one to turn to.i had to cry myself to sleep.ahhhh.heck.if the year has to end like that.then fine.so be it.

you like to hang up on me,
whether there's a reason to or not.
and you like to say that i've time,
time for no one but my friends.

well, i'm telling you,
i've never loved another girl the way i love you,
and although i might have hurt you before,
i feel like crap when i do.

you're special to me,
and no one can replace you.
its all the little things that you do,
the little things that you say,
that makes me love you more.

so please dont ever doubt my love,
for it is here to stay.
even if you ask me to leave,
my heart and soul will remain.

BLOODY HELL.i feel like smacking someone now.but you know what?im not going to do anything stupid.bleahhh.there.im off.

and ppl,my OLD SELF will be back soon.cos like my bestie,i dont think i'd have any situation to be in anymore.

till then`

WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

2005-12-31T12:55:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!

this is SAM/SNGwei/AH-SAM invading my BESTIE'S blog! heh. ((: i'm going arnd helping people to BLOG and BLOG and BLOG and BLOG since they cannot be bothered UPDATING about ANYTHING. *hint hint* heee.

might i mention that my bestie is horribly horny? heh. well, its not entirely her fault, since she has a really horny gf, and not to mention utterly horny friends too. not that i'm one, but i guess it'll do too, if that makes you happier. HEH.

and yes, amerie cher, YOU take care too. dont make the same mistakes i did, cause that'll just be so so so WASTED. haha. treasure what you have, dont wait till its too late. not that you need to be told, but yeah. heh. we're in the same situation, except mine's worse than yours and... actually, i'm not entirely sure that i've a situation anymore, so i guess the old SAM! will be back soon. hehe.

you like to hang up on me,
whether there's a reason to or not.
and you like to say that i've time,
time for no one but my friends.

well, i'm telling you,
i've never loved another girl the way i love you,
and although i might have hurt you before,
i feel like crap when i do.

you're special to me,
and no one can replace you.
its all the little things that you do,
the little things that you say,
that makes me love you more.

so please dont ever doubt my love,
for it is here to stay.
even if you ask me to leave,
my heart and soul will remain.

wahaha. i just had to write that. and please, people, do not think that we're PB okay, since that lil poem thingy up there is meant for OTHER people. heh. oh well, this just shows how bored i am right now. weeeeee!!

aha, i'm finally done blogging for this butt here. anyway, till the next time i blog, its the BABOON blogging for the BUTT! heh. cheers! ((:

2005-12-30T20:33:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging aye?sorry lar.aint my fault.i just dont know what to blog about.bwahahah.man.my eye hurts lar.dammit.anyway,went to watch THE FAMILY STONE today.was nice.haahaha.i wished i was somewhere else though.sigh.but oh wells.i kept wanting to go home after that.i just dint have the mood anymore.bleahhh.so anyway,met shok and then walked around for a while.it was about like that lar.nth much.then shok and wee left.so yeah.we went over to taka.while walking there,we saw this GIRL.THIS GIRL,yes.so i PURPOSELY bumped into her,she turned around and shouted "WAH LAO! (then realised it was me) and said"AMERIE CHER!" hahahaha.and who else the person must be?none other then,SHERYL YEO.hahah! retard she is.okay.so we went to taka,jamie met her parents then we went off to compass with BESTIE and NUMBER ONE,then home.yeah.and so you know,i dint eat dinner! (:

lalala.now i wanna print photo.im kinda into photos now.i dont know why.i think its sort of letting go once in a while thing.I GUESS?hahaha.im missing someone badly now.BLAHHHHHHHHH.you probably wont read this but yeah.I MISS YOU A HELL LOT.

oh yeah! i think i was really horny today.i kept reading THOSE msgs over and over again.im sorry,BUT I CANT HELP IT LAR.humph.aiight.im gonna go off.byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

till then`

2005-12-28T03:00:00.000+08:00

hello ppl! it is 3.02am.HAHA.what am i doing online you say?well...technically,im blogging! =D today had a party.lotsa lotsa ppl came over.and i mean alot of ppl.HAHA.and now there is just my family left.with nic of course.not like she IS family but yeah.hahah.nic is here.yayness! (= the party turned out well lar.not a bad thing.ahah.we sang in the room.REALLY LOUD.and if not for those pesky lil kids.it would've been SO much more fun.omg.there were SO irritating.thank heavens they're kids.or else i would've just slapped them.well,i guess the hair coming off bit was too bad for them!or maybe her...hahaha.in side joke.not really a joke.it was sick in fact.looked like pubic hair.BWAHAHAH.alrights.im being damn sick here.nic is whining.heh.okay.so the rest left bout 10 plus 11.so left maddy and nic alone with me.haha.then maddy left at 2.yeahhh.so it's like that.hahah.now me and maddy are online talking like one of those cheena farts you can find in friendster.sick stuff mann.you'll just laugh your bloody ass off..not like that is literally bloody.but yeah.ohgay. (=

i was msging someone bout a fairly interesting topic today.and yeah.i've fully assured you.trust me pls. (:

alrights.im gonna go off now cos NIC IS SLEEPY.
bye.

till then`

miss loves mr!

2005-12-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

hellowellofellomello! :D
MR!!!
cheer up alrights!
everything will turn out fine.
there's many ups and downs,
small and big obstacles everywhere.
all you have to do is EMBRACE IT.
as i say, THE RAIN WILL GO somehow (:
and MR BRIGHTSIDE is waiting to appear!
dont blink, he's just hiding somewhere,
you have to welcome him back with your cheery-brightly-happy smile! (:
Life is beautiful when you learn to smile,
and i know you can do it.
smile from deep within, not outside!
miss is here for you, always and always.
just a phone call away okay!
(: see, miss is smiling,
waiting for you to do the moves with me.
and mr looks best with her oh-so-happy smile (:
laughs. miss is being retarded, hmm, but ya.
anyway, all i want to say is,
ALWAYS LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE!
tadaa tadaa tadaa tadaaaaa (: -(this is the tune)
okay, im off,
WITH A SMILE (:
miss loves loves loves you!
takecare, i'll see you ard soon!

miss;

2005-12-26T16:08:00.000+08:00

it's boxing day.and hell yeah...i wanna box somebody!okayokay.it doesnt mean go box somebody but still...early in the day alr got people shouting about in the house.how do you think i feel man.ahhh.screw it.this sucks.

im going out for a party later again with my parents at my granduncle's house with like 3/4 ppl i do not know there,cos they arent family?fun?i think not.its absolutely so out of point lar.you know why?cos i went to my grandmother's hse ytd.everyone was there.except my parents.HAH.i thought this year,finally with my granamother there,it'd be so nice to see the whole family together at last.but nooo.they dint go cos of problems with my aunties and uncles.like hello!? it's christmas,where's the spirit man.wht happened to the laughter and cheer we all used to have before.i think my aunties and uncles were too much also lar.mann.they sure dont seem like adults to me ya know.so much for being mature.look who are the mature ones here,THE KIDS. i think the term "grow-up" suits them the BEST.damn.

okay.im gonna stop here.i dont really have the mood to do anything now.maybe ill just blog more crap when i get back from downstairs.

till then`